game.

the moment in your life where you are the  happiest  you ever remember yourself  being.  something spectacular has come into your life just at the right moment. feelings of excitement, worry, anticipation. time could not move more slowly even if you took all the batteries out of the clocks. wearing your heart on your sleeve has only brought you heartache in  the past. is  it too soon? will i be good enough? am i going to embarrass myself? diving in without knowing what is going to happen. longing for those feelings of belonging. just missing having someone to talk to, hold  hands  with, whisper secrets to. i don't want all those words to mean nothing. worry over what will actually happen. trusting your heart knows what is right. knowing you will be accepted for who you really are. time. time. time. time. a long, long time to wait. it is a long time, but it will be worth it. worth the wait to accept something good into my life. something i wouldn't want to change.

 happiness.